Bitter Swyt Memory

I haven't cried after a certain , situation happened in my life, from 20th Jan onwards... I have kept lot of things inside me, I did shared my feeling and my thinking with my friend, but dose not help me, when ever i get alone, i goes in to that situation, sad, bored and lot of things gather inside my mind. It disturber me , it hurts ....etc I kept my thoughts about my Boyfriend a side, i thought for now its better not to think about him. so i tried my best to keep him away from my thinking , but i haven't forgotten him ,oooh, don't even want to forget, last night i took the little notebook, where i wrote all of his MSG's. I read one and tears just came out ,.... from heart , i miss him a lot . its being 6 months that i havent got a sweet msg from him . No one have called me the sweet name he used to call me. In those msg's when i saw those sweet words he used , those sweet names he call me , i just coudnt controll , I miss him a lot ... hell yea i can't forg

some weeks back we went to a park , there what we saw was couples, they so into what they are talking and sharing , they even dont knw whats going on around .. This made me think this, If a person goes to a place with his/her g/b friend, the only thing there mind will be , about them , like if i go to place with my Bf i wont think about others there ,what they are thinking or doing. I will think only about us and where we wanna sit , or , about some which happened or some thing i wanna talk about , and some funny stuffs........... its always will be about us. but if i go with a friend , i will be talking about weather , the people there, and how stupid those people are doing that, blaa blaaa blaa and will talk about every thing which is going on around us. Well, it is so different the feeling and enjoyment , when we go with a friend and a boy/girlfriend..

Am sorry that i haven't posted any thing lately ......But now am Back and am planning to write some interesting stuffs...... There is no specific reason for not posting ........well, i think am freaking lost. wateva........!!!! now am back .... So then see u guys around here , and my new posts .........