I haven't cried after a certain , situation happened in my life, from 20th Jan onwards... I have kept lot of things inside me, I did shared my feeling and my thinking with my friend, but dose not help me, when ever i get alone, i goes in to that situation, sad, bored and lot of things gather inside my mind. It disturber me , it hurts ....etc
I kept my thoughts about my Boyfriend a side, i thought for now its better not to think about him. so i tried my best to keep him away from my thinking , but i haven't forgotten him ,oooh, don't even want to forget, last night i took the little notebook, where i wrote all of his MSG's. I read one and tears just came out ,.... from heart , i miss him a lot . its being 6 months that i havent got a sweet msg from him . No one have called me the sweet name he used to call me. In those msg's when i saw those sweet words he used , those sweet names he call me , i just coudnt controll , I miss him a lot ... hell yea i can't forget, and dont even wanna forget . He was my life and is and even will be my life.
I wanna be LOVED, regula love, No break . I want connection , This barrier is killing me.
Anyway i couldnt read those msgs, tears were falling , heart was tearin a part, then i cried , Cried a lot , Cried my eye out. I felt asleep holding his t-shirt and the notebook , being tired of crying .............
Morning i was like OMG what happened lastnight.
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