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Guy 1:  Loves me , cares for me , Can spend hours listening to me , makes me happy  - drug user
Guy 2: Loves me , will do anything to be with me , to see my face , to hold me  - drug user
Guy 3: Loves me , wants me but married , he does not know how to show care and have a bad habit.    
These three guys are different to each another I was looking for thing I saw from first 2 guys to be in the third guy. But I can not  explain my self.

It seems like he does not wants to listen to me , I am not complaining ,am just saying what I feel and what I think .First of all its his responsibility to correct my thinking and giving me assurances  if that thinking is regarding him . But no his does not comfort me in any situation in any way.

When he came to visit me I got upset and I was feeling very down , he told me he didn't come here to see my fucked up face or comfort me when I am sad or upset ( now i am think what a retarded person is he)  he said, " are you gonna be like that  ,when i am here for like a day or two"
When I tried to express my self  on phone before he came. Its never was  a good time for him. We did talk a lot but not those intimate talks. He does not listen to my feelings.

"Does he even knows that a woman want some one to just hear her out, nothing more"






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