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Self doubt

He said, he didn't feel like talking to me, and I have to understand that. He loves me and the reason he gives me to marry is not enough for me. He thinks I am not a good person. I am not understanding person , why would he marry me right. The reason, I understood before  is he explained things to me

Now, what happened is he didn't explain and tell me anything. We don't communicate and I got so worried and all the negative though ate my head and then I thought of going out from relationship, leave him behind.

"He tells me he just didn't feel like talking to me"

What the fuck is that I am supposed to understand that if he could have told me it before. guess if I  have known what's going or he just didn't feel like talking to me. I am not gonna get emotional and all into it, but now  I want to scold and shout and go angry on him for that matter, I am not gonna do it.

So now my decision was giving him the time he wants. I am not sure if I want him or not. If he can go on days not feeling like talking to me, why don't I go on feeling like not talking to him? " I can do that"

Do I really need him? do  I really want to spend my life with him?

I need an answer for it.  I guess I have to figure it out myself. 


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