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Going over my head

It's a kinda creepy feeling which  I am having right now, thinking why would he ignore me or a thing. But I know he is not a phone person or some one who keeps up with his phone. But some how what I think is if  he misses me little bit or even think about me little bit he would at least look at his phone, 
I keep wondering if he is so away from phone how come he contact with his son, who is his life.
Is he ignoring me, or messing with me. I  keep on thinking he should not even mess with me.  I was satisfied and happy with my life. With out liking any one having a firm mind of what I want, what I should be doing to reach what I want. 
Then why did he come to my life to take away my smile, now always I think I about him. Why is it. ? Why am I even letting my self to this stage? I should have been careful. This is so fucked up thing. 

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Some how I kinda feel like knowing how ur and stuff, even though you do not tell me. 
These things are getting on my nerves. (Why you)

 I keep on thinking what the heck I wanna know about u. You do not wanna know how am or even care abt what I do or even let me know ur things.
 ( its little exaggeration - he does sometimes) 

 Anyway, am trying to say is, I don't like who I am becoming, I don't wanna make it a big deal even. 

"Then don't think I am theenayaa hedhi moya vefa or I want u so badly or a thing"

WTF dhoa.  I also don't know what the heck is it. Damn. 


23 MAY 2017

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