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At the age of 30plus, I am learning there is nothing called dipped or forbidden fruit.
It's the first time I have faced such situation so imaging how would I feel.
I didn't know how to act, talk or even behave in front of them.

They looked down on me.
I don't want Symphony of anyone.
Am self-aware, confident person. At least I like to believe that I am.
But somehow .. during this time I have looked down on my self even. I made a fool of my self and I made my self-worthless in front of you and others ... that's what I think for my self.

I don't wanna be that person.
Who reminds you of your past and don't wanna be the second person in any one life.
I have more self-respect to my self.
Just because I look like ur past or am same characters as your past, you don't get right to invite me to your life or even play games with me.
Go and find your past from someone else. Don't involve me in it.

This is the end of all this drama and ur chapter. I have more value to my self than you. I don't need you, I was just confused. Ur not a necessary to my life ur just something I wanted to have for a short period of time just because you seems so vulnerable and in need of some company. But you tried not to be available for me. Which made me work for it in different ways. Trying that I have lost a bit of me. Thought I was being good to you.

That was a lesson, I learned trying to make someone life better when that person is not ready for a change is a wast of my time and loss of my self.

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